valentine’s day
Feb. 15th, 2026 02:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shootuptill5amout of every day of the year, i consider vday to be my loneliest day. it’s hard to think about how lonely things feel normally but february 14th escalates that feeling like it’s clockwork.
it’s hard when no matter what i do i can’t escape that feeling. i go on social media and i’m reminded. i go outside and i’m reminded. i go to work and i’m reminded. it chews me up and spits me out and i feel the impact hard.
it’s funny that a year ago today, i took a cab to look over the bund at near midnight to think. i listened to music and took a while to sit with it all. and now, a year later, i took a cab home in brooklyn and listened to music and thought about it all. i’m still thinking about it all, hence this entry (iguess).
places change but the problems stay the same. i have this fantasy that if (&when) i run away, my problems will go away with it. nights like tonight show me that isn’t necessarily the case.
it’s easy to forget about other love i carry in my life— like for friends, and my hobbies, and whatnot. i love hard and i love all of those listed to death. but i feel like i’m still lacking.
can someone find me?
it’s hard when no matter what i do i can’t escape that feeling. i go on social media and i’m reminded. i go outside and i’m reminded. i go to work and i’m reminded. it chews me up and spits me out and i feel the impact hard.
it’s funny that a year ago today, i took a cab to look over the bund at near midnight to think. i listened to music and took a while to sit with it all. and now, a year later, i took a cab home in brooklyn and listened to music and thought about it all. i’m still thinking about it all, hence this entry (iguess).
places change but the problems stay the same. i have this fantasy that if (&when) i run away, my problems will go away with it. nights like tonight show me that isn’t necessarily the case.
it’s easy to forget about other love i carry in my life— like for friends, and my hobbies, and whatnot. i love hard and i love all of those listed to death. but i feel like i’m still lacking.
can someone find me?
